Connect, Brain!

So, I've spent all week working on paperwork.  Like, morning noon and night. It's been a LOOONG week, but thankfully God knew exactly what I needed and gave me people to help and to encourage and to proofread and all kinds of stuff. I literally couldn't have even begun to do it without these folks! I love you guys!  

I realized last night, though, that my brain was starting to shut down on me. Even this morning, there was a serious lag in processing. I would hear someone ask a question and know I needed to respond, but it just wouldn't come to my brain and out of my mouth very quickly at all. Or I would say aloud that I needed to do something but couldn't quite figure out that first step to take. I joked that my brain was like dial-up internet!  At first it was really scary. I felt like I was losing it!  But, then I realized that it's just mental exhaustion. (It took me a minute to figure that out  haha).  The truth is, my dial-up will turn back into DSL once I have time to rest.  However, some people live with this daily. I count this experience as a blessing because it gave me a glimpse into the lives of my students with processing difficulties. It was scary and frustrating and sad. I cannot imagine how difficult it would be to daily be faced with those moments of "hum" in your brain before the synapses fire (or whatever happens) and you know what to do...to be faced with those moments of having someone look at you like, "Um...did you hear what I said?"...to know that you have to do something quickly but you literally can't because you don't even remember yet how to do it!  Thank You, Lord, for giving me this opportunity so that I might purpose to be understanding of individuals who have processing deficits.