It is always so difficult when I move from one place to another. Mainly because it is truly not easy for me to make friends. I'm not really 'girly' so I don't fit in with a lot of women my age. I am usually a peacekeeper, but as I have gotten older, I've gained quite a few strong feelings regarding how people treat one another. I'm sure you all know by now that I simply cannot stand for people using the R-word: It literally breaks my heart. I don't understand why people are shunned for what they are. Also, I cannot handle people being mean for no reason or picking on people just to make themselves look or feel better. I mean, I thought I got out of high school ten *gasp* years ago! Honestly, I have always been able to make friends more easily with guys than with girls, but once you're my age and married, it's not exactly acceptable to have all male friends!
So, as I moved to Georgia this time, I started wondering why I have a hard time being close to people and I think I realized that although I didn't mean to, I was constantly comparing people and potential friendships with ones that I have back home. I've realized that NO ONE will replace Carla or Emily or any of my other wonderful friends whom I love and miss dearly. These people will always be close to me and always be ones that I can run to in time of jubilation, fear, or need. I realized that it's okay to have new friendships and even new 'best' friends. This doesn't take away from who or what these longstanding friendships are. We've been in this area for a couple years now and new bonds have formed. Knowing us, we'll be leaving soon...haha!
You aren't trying to tell us something are you? ;-)
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