'Wait' is a four-letter word

You probably know that waiting is not exactly my strong point. As stated before, my dad used to tell me that the dreading's worse than the doing, and that is soooo true in my case. Carla and I used to say "I wish I just knew _______." Fill in the blank with whatever a child/teenager/young adult might like to know about the future (what I got on that test, who I'll marry, what I'll be when I grow up, what I'll be doing five years from now, etc...). I am still that way: I don't necessarily have to be living the future, I just want to know what's in store so that I'll be prepared for it!

Here's the red flag for those of you who hadn't already realized my control and anxiety issues!

Please understand that even as I type this, I am aware that God knows what is in store and that I should "let go and let God". But, this blog is about being real and not just saying what I should be thinking. I am doing my absolute best to give my future to Him and not stress about it, but it's not easy. Which brings me to the most wonderful man in the world...

My husband. Brad is wonderfully positive and fantastically 'real'. He very rarely stresses about ANYTHING. It's kind of funny because you absolutely cannot judge the severity of an issue by my reaction, but you know something is wrong if Brad Hicks is concerned about it. He is so amazingly laid back. He is able to calm me easily and keep me pacified (especially since he finally took Carla's advice and started giving me answers to my random questions)! To be honest, I'd never have thought while growing up with Brad that we'd end up together and there are certainly times even now that I realize how different we are (for example, how did I end up with a guy that doesn't care much about football???)! But, I know that he was picked by God especially for me.

Now, to put these two thoughts together: my wonderful husband has been unhappy in his job for a long time. It breaks my heart because I have been there: where you don't want to get up and go to work, where the thought of being there makes you ill, where you become increasingly willing to eat rice and beans everyday for the rest of your life if it means not having to go there again. The truth of the matter is that I know in my heart that God has something great for Brad. He has a plan for Brad that will allow him to go to work with a smile on his face and a song in his heart. So, now I immediately want to know what that plan is...and Brad is waiting on God's perfect timing. How did I get so lucky with such an amazing, obedient Christian man?

Katie and I simply cannot get enough gospel, so I'm adding this for her...this is a song that a lady at my church has sung a few times (admittedly, with a little less 'soul') and it always seems to be exactly when I need to hear it! **I love the background dancers** :-)

*You'll have to scroll down to the music and pause it first or right-click and watch the video on youtube. Sorry!*